The disappointment, the frustration, the bond,
break down so easily until i couldn't hold myself.
But luckily, there's someone always behind my back, support me no matter what.
The things i have with the girl above which i can't find with anyone else is, faith.
God arranged us to become close and closer. Both of us never expect that we can become so besties.
Maybe because we are so alike? In terms of mindset & character.
I never emphasize how much i appreciate her, how much i afraid to lose her.
Because i never afraid of losing her? Ha~
No of course, the reason is i wanted to hide her inside my 'closet' & do not want anyone to own her.
I'll get jealous easily trust me.
We have a common hobby -----> alcohol.
Guess how lucky i am for always get drunk in front of her. Haiz!
My only and flexible alcohol kaki is Her only... *pathetic me*
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Time really flies so much, until i forget to count the day together with old man.
Then i asked him, how many years did we together?
He said, 6 years. Since u're eighteen.
Believe it or not, we never really been celebrate our anniversary.
These years dating with him, is so not Dating.
We don't talk about future/ marriage when we started the relationship for the first 4 years.
Not at all.
We weren't quite a happy couple frankly.
We almost argue every day, because i'm a piss off girlfriend ever in this world.
Our temper wasn't so nice in that time.
Let's assume, i was a girl from fairy tales, i always believed that there's so much wonderful stuff waiting for me outside.
And, he is a guy from realistic world, so not prince and white horse or whatever. The way his thinking is too logic, end by end, straight into conclusion.
His world X My world.
So u guys imagine how my life was for the past 5 years.
Many people thought i date with him because he got a house, a car, and rich.
Hell yeah, so not truth.
i date with him because of the feelings, who cares what he got?
Plus, flash back these 6 years, his career wasn't that smooth as what he thought.
He was a credit card's slave until a week ago.
I've been so worried for him for such a long time,
His career, our uncertain future, the insecure lifestyle,
But i still believe he has his way to make things right.
Always give him times & spaces make us more miserable.
Whoever goes through the harsh & stressful moment will finally come to the sunshine.
Not totally can see the sunshines, we can see the half already.
I hopes that he can always maintain this way.
The more yet to come.
Good night. Sweetdream
xoxo
Ysan
