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Heiya, miss me? here I am to update what's going on these few months.

It has been a lot going through , yet, it just not over. 

I always believed that things will be come up straight eventually, and it did. 
Just the progress is slower than a turtle. 

I celebrated my birthday at Ipoh, became old man's personal tour guide since he was not exactly been there before. I've been there once, with closest gang Lumu Kakis. But, I'm not genius enough to remember all the directions. Thanks the inventor for invented smart phone's GPS and Google, really helped us lots to visit those places that I went before. 



I showed old man the drive-thru tau fu fah, the not so nice but a lot of people looking for: fried ingredient (da shu tou), and the famous teluk intan's chee cheong fan. Also, first time ever old man brought me to the hot spring which located at Ipoh as well. I still remembered that we straight 'flew' to Ipoh at evening due to he has to finished his work and there's no time for us to rest. We went for hotspring after we checked-in the hotel. How rush we were! After that already 12 at the midnight, we went for Lou Wong Ga Choy Kai for our so called dinner. 



I still can't believed that within this 6 hours we can actually did so much of stuff. From the journey, to check-in, to Hotspring and to the 'dinner' at last! Wow!



I have friends wondered that why he didn't brought me to a nicer restaurant for the celebration? Yet he brought me to Ipoh and eat street food instead. Maybe this is normally the most girls dreamt of, wishes for. However I'm not those kind of girls. I know what makes me truly happy. A high cost restaurant so what? I couldn't even sit properly and enjoy the meal, i couldn't even to taste the food as well. He did brought me went to those kind of restaurant often, not special occasion, i just didn't like it. And this kind of meal takes only 2 hours? or 3 hours the max? A two person-journey worth so much than that.



And yesh, this year birthday ended well. In the car, we talked, we laughed, we gossiped during the journey. Only the 2 of us moment. We were really exhausted of course. :)))


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Yet, today is not a special occasion too. But in these 2 months after my birthday, we didn't actually had a day to have a proper date. Ridiculous right? Wonder how I could tolerate with such workaholic boyfriend? And don't even to raise an single argument with him? Answer: Keep myself busy!



So today it's the dating day so effin finally. We had our early brunch at Levain Boulangerie & Patisserie which located at Central KL. Well, its basically selling English breakfast that's all, you can see so many bread inside there. Got the 'wow' effect while i first time got here, the environment is extremely the best of the best.

 The usual us, teehee ♥♥♥

Then, we had our shopping at Timesquare and SungeiWang. Not even two hours, we get our hell our of there. I can't stand the 'lala' clothes over there, I felt guilty for those ugly shirt. I wonder why they never guilty for selling them? 

Next, we headed to SCM for further shopping and had our dinner at Tony Roma.

Enjoyed the 30% discount which is super excited man!!

The lamb chop. My favorite all the time!

His sirloin steak. Too bad i couldn't eat any pieces of those.









































Oh yah, don't forget the incidence at the midnight. While we were sleeping, i had a nightmare which is about having a fight with him, I was so angry until i woke up. At the moment of that second, i couldn't brain well, i hold my fist tight and punch him into the face. He was so shocked.............. and then i slept back with full of anger, i don't want to 'choi' him. Who asked him scold me at the dream?


Of course I laughed die at the next morning... I can't believed i can be so angry until punch people into a face! Whoah!!!


 I couldn't stop laughing when i flashed back the incident earlier. So can i say that the incident made my day?

Last Saturday, we watched IMAX 2-D for Elysium for the first time.

It was so effin good man!

I was planning to sleep in the Cinema, due to went through several sleepless night, and i was so tired after the stress part has finally came into end that day.

Too bad, i couldn't sleep at all. The screen, the sound effect, and the movie itself! Wahlao!

How could human can imagine such a scene and produce it into a movie?!

How?

It made me sobs over there, and let the old man made a laughed at me.. ish! Damn shameful..

Okay, that's all for today... Goodnight all the night cat. 

ps:// Thanks for the efforts making me become a fully truly happy girl. I'm appreciate for everything u've done for me.

xoxo

Ysan.

曾經，有個好友告訴我說，剛認識我的時候覺得我很瀟灑，沒煩惱，了解后才發現我比任何人來得執著

我不否認，我是執著的我知道

明明知道快要走不下去，分歧大得可以
神經緊綳得厲害，當有東西需要我去死守，我會拼了命去守護
守護著不能被我傷害的感情

兩個都是牛脾氣，兩個都是心很軟的人
只要一方面放下態度，另一個不到一秒就會原諒
我們就是這樣的一對情侶
脾氣硬是我們之間的導火綫

我常會抱怨為何他從不會哄人，到現在也學不會
一句：我不會       就大完？
我知道，他就只有我能依靠，只有我在，他睡得穩一些，
只有我，他不必偽裝成大人，會像個大小孩似的在我耳邊一輪嘴說不停
也就只有我不怕他，我是唯一一個可以忍受他的人
他遇到困難時，會把我推得很遠，把自己躲在一個人的世界
我因爲這樣傷心過
不過，我知道他不會真的想要我離開，他比任何人更需要我在身邊

姓雷的，我知道，我什麽都知道
我知道我很重要 XD
我不說而已  



晚安咯！

We all live in a fantasy,

The bloody expectation, the hope, the kind of thought in our mind,

is all fantasy.

which lead us into fucked up.

But we love to dream isn't it? We love fantasy even it fucked us over.

In the moment of 20-ish, either to be urself or 'act' like the fake one is urself.

I'm in love with 'Skins'. Bored but quite meaningful English drama, all about teenagers, they screwed up their life with a bullock head.

But thanks, it just wake me up from living in the fantasy.

Feeling loved. :)

Everything just screw up..

But they will be fine eventually...

Do not lose faith! This is what i've got now.

Will

Stop

Update

For

2

Months.

Stay tuned.

:)))



xoxo

Ysan

Langkawi travel - weekend getaway

Travelling with my bestie is the best journey that i'd never experience before.

I've been Langkawi Island when i was standard six graduation trip, I couldn't recall the look of the Island.

It was so long ago.

3 days of travelling, the sun was BIG, 

rent a car, Citra.

Went to the beach with bikini for 2 days continuously, finally got a face sunburn. *^^*

were staying at Tubo hotel, sucks and yucks.

were sleeping in the ROUND room, ONLY bed,

slept with our luggage, with the door opened.

were drinking alcohol during midnight, love the windy night beach

Bathroom is shared,

has a washing machine and hanger, the only benefit that i can found in this hotel

Wanted to meet my cousin, weilong which had his own trip there, but failed: (

however he called and we chatted for while. How sweet: )

Enjoyed buying import chocolate and alcohol with duty free,

now i know the tax is more expensive than the goods itself. wtf.

first time having bus & ferry travel with her for 12 hours,

first time had the airplanes with her as well.

It was an awesome journey, indeed.

A true friend, never show off, never want 'win' against each other,

always make u feel cheers and no pressure.

With care, really made a difference.

With fake, no matter how long u know a person, or care a person,

never last-long.

All we want is to see each other taking good care in our life.

This is us.

He loves to smell my hair, i wonder why?

was thinking of him for this 3 days, 

i hate the insecure feelings, 

without him, i felt like i'm not complete, and insecure.

Thanks for the love and misses.
Thanks for the hugss today as i seriously need my secure back.
And thanks for the 'sponsorship'! XD

xoxo 

Ysan

P's:// get scolded by my mum for having myself tanned. Guess I'm a stubborn daughter huh? xD

P'ss:// slept for whole day today, I miss my bed and aircond lots! 

Good night.

最近愛上了跑步，好喜歡跑到心臟快跳出來的感覺，晚上也睡得特別香

有時真的很懶得跑，想要偷懶一天半天

但還是會想念心跳的感覺

感覺很踏實，還活著

在雨露的早晨，或者在烈日當空下，

一步一步踏在地面上

嗯，能跑真好！

邋遢了好久，很抱歉我又冷落了這裡，甚至一度想関了這個blog.

縂覺得要跟人家交待什么似的，那段時間不想在這裡寫東西可能就是這個原因，彷佛會被人看穿心事，像沒穿衣服被人看光光? 哈，我這比喻好像有點奇怪哈。

不過既然享受寫作，從小就愛文字的我，就算被看光光也沒理由放棄呀！對不？

其實，說到文字，我這個人確實有個坏毛病，就是我很忌愇寫錯字，雖然我的文字方面沒像中國人那麽強，但我會很恨自己或別人打錯文字，縂覺得說不上的怪吧？！因爲每一個字都包含不同的意思，寫錯了就尷尬了啊~

好了，請原諒我的嘮叨。

這幾個月以來，碰上了很多事， 有又哭又笑，失望難過，快樂又期望的這半年，

說真的，確實有另一番的成長和看法

雖然說，男人這幾年教會我不少別人不會的東西，灌輸我很多方面的知識，

我的確比別人幸運很多，至少至少，我不再是那個什麽都不會的黃頭小丫。

人一旦成長了，快樂就會被剝奪，不會像之前那麽會惹人笑，那麽會讓人感到輕鬆自在

也許這社會並沒那麽色彩

有些人，有些事，確實沒必要讓你去費神去珍惜，

因爲疼惜，所以心痛

因爲自己改變了，別人還在原地踏步，所以無措

因爲有了自己的目標，所以我會變得如此無情

因爲有不珍惜自己的人，所以學會珍惜那些愛我的人

因爲看得清透，所以失望

我一直把錯歸咎于自己，讓別人好過一些

但其實才發現，一直有問題的不是自己，而是別人

我的善良變成了別人對我殘忍的武器。

不好意思，遍體麟傷也有浴火重生的一天 :))

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我是個不容易說愛的人。但當我說愛，我真的愛，也會膩著你一輩子

只要你讓我覺得依靠和信賴

兩個人在一起這麽久，有過讓步，有過歇斯底里，有一起哭過，大笑過，幼稚過

一開始沒期盼，覺得不會久，但因爲自己一直有去付出而得到他的珍惜，他的在生活上的努力，就為了和我走更長的路

兩人走到今天不容易，未來的路還要一起牽著走 :]

晚安

筆

姍

The disappointment, the frustration, the bond, 

break down so easily until i couldn't hold myself.

But luckily, there's someone always behind my back, support me no matter what.

The things i have with the girl above which i can't find with anyone else is, faith.

God arranged us to become close and closer. Both of us never expect that we can become so besties.

Maybe because we are so alike? In terms of mindset & character.

I never emphasize how much i appreciate her, how much i afraid to lose her.

Because i never afraid of losing her? Ha~

No of course, the reason is i wanted to hide her inside my 'closet' & do not want anyone to own her.

I'll get jealous easily trust me.

We have a common hobby -----> alcohol.

Guess how lucky i am for always get drunk in front of her. Haiz! 

My only and flexible alcohol kaki is Her only... *pathetic me*

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Time really flies so much, until i forget to count the day together with old man.

Then i asked him, how many years did we together?

He said, 6 years. Since u're eighteen.

Believe it or not, we never really been celebrate our anniversary. 

These years dating with him, is so not Dating.

We don't talk about future/ marriage when we started the relationship for the first 4 years.

Not at all.

We weren't quite a happy couple frankly.

We almost argue every day, because i'm a piss off girlfriend ever in this world.

Our temper wasn't so nice in that time.

Let's assume, i was a girl from fairy tales, i always believed that there's so much wonderful stuff waiting for me outside.

And, he is a guy from realistic world, so not prince and white horse or whatever. The way his thinking is too logic, end by end, straight into conclusion.

His world X My world.

So u guys imagine how my life was for the past 5 years.

Many people thought i date with him because he got a house, a car, and rich.

Hell yeah, so not truth.

i date with him because of the feelings, who cares what he got?

Plus, flash back these 6 years, his career wasn't that smooth as what he thought.

He was a credit card's slave until a week ago.

I've been so worried for him for such a long time,

His career, our uncertain future, the insecure lifestyle, 

But i still believe he has his way to make things right.

Always give him times & spaces make us more miserable.

Whoever goes through the harsh & stressful moment will finally come to the sunshine.

Not totally can see the sunshines, we can see the half already.

I hopes that he can always maintain this way.

The more yet to come.

Good night. Sweetdream

xoxo

Ysan

這張無題，原因是我不懂要怎麽的一個概念去寫這一篇。

昨晚很突然的，和久違的朋友問起了一個生病的朋友，
從他們口中我才知道，自己是多麽的失敗，多麽的惡劣的一個人

不止這位生病的朋友對我們有一點失望，我對我自己也非常的失望

他，是個自尊心強烈的男生，很好勝很有沖頸的一个人
這不代表他不友善，反而擁有很多好朋友
從中學認識他到現在，在我心目中他是個很陽光的男孩
蹦蹦跳跳，好運動好學的一個人
中一的時候，被一位學姐一直說我跟他很相配，然而我們都不怎麽跟對方說話的
因爲那時我暗戀著另一個男生，有一陣子還蠻納悶干嘛那位學姐一直説一直説

畢業過後，我們各走各的生活，是極少聯絡的
畢業的這五年，我都堅持一個習慣，就是每年初二的第一站都要到我家聚一聚，然後再到別人家拜年
前三年，我們這一班又有一個習俗，每年廿九晚上都要有我們自己的除夕夜
每年我都會私下短訊他，他才會到
其餘的時間，圍繞身邊的都是比較熟的朋友，或者是男朋友
多餘的精力除了男朋友還是男朋友

我以爲，這就是我珍惜友情的一种表達
因爲大家都像我這樣，有自己的生活要過
不再像中學那樣，把友情看得過重，
我很清楚我必須面對現實的生活
然而，有時閒的話，會跟好姐妹們去泡吧，聊聊心事

我以爲，朋友做到像我這樣，已經很難得的了
但事實証明我是個多麽失敗的一個朋友
兩年了，他沒到我家拜年已經兩年了，我渾然不知
我卻以爲我們生疏了，完全不把這件事放在心上

兩年前他生病，現在我才知道他的嚴重性
朋友透露說，他有一點失望，因爲我們一聲関心的問候語都沒有
我想了一整個晚上，情況換是我的話，我不止是失望，我會絕望

有男朋友又如何？是我們的最後一個男人嗎？
把大多數的時間放在男朋友身上又怎樣？誰能保證他永遠不會抛棄我們？
有夢想又如何？
夢想成真卻沒人和你分享這份喜悅一切都是枉然
有自己的工作生活，忙到要命又如何？
朋友忘記你的存在，而你的朋友繼續有他們自己想要珍惜一輩子的朋友

最後，我還是股起勇氣打了電話給他，
不管他蓋我電話也好，不接受我的問候也好，甚至我還很擔心他會把我罵得一滴不剩，
我還是打了
他說，他對我們這一班真的很失望
他要的只不過是兩個字，関心而已
聼到這裡，我的眼淚不自覺的打滾，好自責好自責

是啊，這麽簡單的関心，我怎麽就做不到呢？
我擔心那麽多無謂的事情干嘛?
情況換是我的話，就算我拿朋友發脾氣，再怎麽難過無法面對也好，
我都好希望朋友會對我不離不棄


如果今天的你發現有一些人很需要你，請不要吝嗇你的時間和関心
幫不到也好，至少讓他知道連一个不熟的你不曾放棄過他，
讓他也不要放棄他自己。


筆，
姍

Old man went outstation so frequently in these few month. Last week went to Melaka, and this week went to Kedah. God knows how much i hate about his frequency of outstation. Why can't his company just gets fire?

Sometimes i wish to write a diary, i don't want to forget how i was when i am young if i'm so old,
until my memories gets disappear day by day and couldn't recognize anyone.
I watched the recent HK drama, called Season of Love. It makes me realizes how important the memory is.
I don't want to forget the sweetness moment with old man, even though he is the one who makes me laugh and cry badly. And i hate to forget how i called him, how i mention him in front my friends: Old Man.

I laugh loudly when he said he similar like a puppy, I used to ignore him but he still 'shake' his ass and show up at my door.
I cry badly when he talked like a gangster and doesn't feel any sympathy of my tears. :'(

There's so much memory i hate to forget and i know i'll forget one day.

One day, old man and i might not love each other anymore, we may hate each other so much when we old, like my grandparents.
I may do many of scolding, complaining as well and he may just sit aside & read newspaper try to ignore me, like my parent.

But if when i'm dying, i wish to remember these laugh and cry moments.
And not a sympathy old woman just forget everything.



xoxo
Ysan




Ps: no doubt Love hurts sometimes, and makes us don't trust love anymore. But with those scars doesn't mean we don't need responsible for people who loving us. Flirting doesn't wrong, but also need responsible. This is the lesson i learn few years ago. Appreciate the people who loves us, caring us, don't get  regret again. Who knows what is happening tomorrow?

My Valentine's (Hat Yai trip)

I spent my valentine's at Hatyai this year. This trip consider a celebration for us. 

No candlelight, no flowers, no chocolate, no fancy romantic arrangements, just a Hat yai trip since old man never been there before. Suagu right?

I used to follow my big family to Hat yai twice. 

And they very good on finding street food which i very proud of to have them as my families.

I don't need to surf internet or ask people around.

Specially thanks to mk and jess for their favor to become our driver.

What am i going to do without both of them?

Mk be my driver when i need her to bring me to klang sentral to buy bus ticket.

The bus seller straight ask us where to go when we got there. So, don't need worry about how to buy the bus ticket. 

But i suggest to drive ourselves or follow trip agency cause 'tutuk' there call up the price when they saw tourist. It's would be more worth to drive yourself up there if u wanna out from Hatyai Central town.

We were so regret for not driving ourselves cause when we planning out of the town to go to the temple and floating market, tutuk there charge us very high price like 800baht two way.. So not worth hence we cancel the Songkhla temple and floating market :(( 

But i insist to go the nearest temple. 400 baht  two way. 

Still, it's damn expensive. but what to do, we got whole day to spent.

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 We stayed at Hansa JB hotel, a 4 star hotel and has a club by it own.

100 baht entry per person and free two bottle of Calsberg. Very cheap and so many ah gua.. hoho..

My man is the attraction of the gay gang of the night.

As i mentioned i stay at Hansa JB hotel, we accidently found a night market just nearby the hotel we stayed.

Old man asked the chinese local there whether the market open at every weekend, the answer is No.

Only open for CNY from day 1 till day 10.

Not to mention, i bought a hair straightener only 330 baht, short pants for 3 only 150 baht, a nice purce 100 baht, bought to my brother a shirt (good quality) only 120 baht. How cheap!!!

I assume the market is only do the local business as we as the tourist don't even know got such cheap market. hoho... we are the lucky one!!

 

The things must do in Hat yai : MASSAGE.

The first day we got there, we went for full body massage only 200baht per person.

the second day we went to the same massage shop for the foot massage only 180 baht per person.

I purposely ask for the strong strength unties massage for us.

I love the hear 'creck' bone sound. =P

Location: Tunnee Massage --> Thanon Manasruedee (Hatyai central) 

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Hat Yai food is highly recommended, but cannot just simply eat due to the hygiene problem.

I got the food poisoning the first time i went with my family. It's torturing...

1) Char siew and pork fried -->Night Market near Hansa JB (only open for CNY)

2) Sesame sweet dumpling serve with soup --> Corner side near Sakura Hotel (Hatyai central only for night)

3) edible bird's nest & gingko --> Hatyai central

4) Fried chicken --> Hatyai central market 

5) Chicken noodle soup (the soup is special and delicious)  --> Night Market near Hansa JB (only open for CNY)

5) Chicken rice--> Hatyai central ( 哥弟茶店）

 6) Seafood porridge --> Thanon Manasruedee (Hatyai central)

7) Duck noodle soup --> Thanon Pracharan (Hatyai central)

8) Seafood noodle soup --> in front of Hansa JB shop. (shop lot just opposite the road)

i've forgotten to take picture as well. sorry my bad.

Don't ask me which one is nice, everything of above is superb nice and delicious.

Not to forget the bread, also sell at the hatyai market.

 3 different type: planta, kaya, and meat floss, so damn delicious.

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Lastly, the picture of us. 

I complained to him that everyone posted at their facebook about how fabulous their valentine were. They went to eat steak at least.

I also want!!

End up, we went to a bar to fulfill my demand. haha!! I'm so demanding~~

The menu there quite cheap, overall only 700 baht for 2 steaks and 3 drinks.

It was a enjoyable trip indeed. At least we don't get food poisoning at last and manage to eat the food that i wanted.

That's all for my valentine's. How about urs?

Pen off

xoxo

Ysan

Penang MUST EAT street food. (Recommended by local)

I was following old man outstation to Penang last week. And i purposely search the CNN website for the Penang famous food. Totally useless. No address no mention what time is opening. Very lack of information.

Hmm, never trust the internet.

But luckily his local colleague knows exactly which hawker is nice and recommended to us.

1) His colleagues said this is the no. 1 yummy cendul in town. Don't trust other's cendul.

 I don't really into it cause sweetness is my enemy.

 2) Chicken rice. Lebuh Chulia. This is definitely yummy. 

3) Squidto, Gurney Plaza. Highly recommended from Taiwan. 

The combination of the cheese, rice and the squid. One is never enough.

4) Tai Tong Dim Sum restaurant, near Lebuh Campbell. (also recommended by his colleague)

As i said, i hated sweet, and i hated 'tan tat' as well because of its crust.

However, i changed my mind about 'tan tat' after had tried on this.

We didn't actually eat much at that morning cause we woke up quite late in the morning =(

I'm dying for cough for this whole week. Old man slept next to me has to babysitting me the 3 nights in Penang. Definitely a bad time for me to fall sick. Why cough instead of others? Why? I became a medicine bag already @@

And this is ME! hoho, i'm loving my hair <3 

Love the way they fall on my shoulder. kekez....

And lastly, the us. He try to fulfill every of my demand now. I mean food. =P

Okay, that's all for today. Can't wait for our reunion dinner and CNY's trip.

Cough, please leave me alone!!

Goodnight, pretty and handsome. =D

xoxo

Ysan